FoundWithYou

i’ve tried to make posts the last few days which ave turned into emails that I’ve sent to my girlfriend. I get to the points during the day that i just want to scream and scream and scream until I can’t hear any sound. It doesn’t help that my sister’s boyfriend has been at my house 3 times this week about. I just hate feeling like this and  whats really wrong with me I miss my girlfriend there is no real reason for me to be acting like this. I wish i had a real reason besides the being clingy but I don’t and i hate feeling so dead so obsessed with talking to her but I am. I almost don’t want to go out tomorrow night like i’ve been planning on for weeks its just I’ve barely left my bed since tuesday night. I try distracting myself from missing her but after awhile every thing i try gets boring and i’m like fuck it lets call her and call her and call her and call her and call her until she picks up which hasn’t worked very well cause she hasn’t picked up much at all. I’m going to have to stay up until like 1 again to talk to her cause that’s the only time I can actually talk to her to have a conversation. Thats been the best part of my last few days just hearing her voice and just being able to sleep knowing she’s safe and sound in bed. I have a problem and i hate it so much if she was home we’d be fine but lack of communication to this point is just bad for me and its led to the downfall of so many relationships.